My denial system on day nine of being clean from weed is telling me that maybe I can just smoke a little if someone offers it to me. But I remember an old friend who neither drinks nor uses saying, after I asked him if he doesn't just want a glass of wine now and again, "Either you do or you don't."
I need to keep this weed thing pretty black and white and I am extending it to alcohol as well for now. I am having tremendous cravings but I know I will feel worse if I give in. I know the confusion it will cause me and the pain of having to start my detox all over again.
That keeps me going.