I am really tense right now. It's 4pm, Friday. I had a really long week at work and the committee in my head is telling me how much I deserve a drink. How great it would taste. How nice it would feel. ugh. I must decide before my sober boyfriend gets off work. I'm timing the trip to the grocery store and already planning out how I'll just have 2 drinks in the bathroom and brush my teeth both times and he'll never know. I feel stupid and kind of dirty. ugh, this feels like the longest moment. Where is the "I feel like I'm gonna go crazy if I don't get a drink, and really is having a couple of drinks the worst thing in the world?" Forum.