Thank you for the support. It sometimes feels as if all I do it moan about things here but you all just let me get it out. Thanks.
Originally Posted by
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Bookwyrm,
I can't tell you how you feel.
it seems you did a pretty good job of that yourself
I've been thinking about this. I was told what I thought I felt by my AH for so long that I think I believed it. I know that for the longest time I trusted what he said more than I trusted myself. How on earth did I get to that stage - and how did I manage to break out of it?! I totally lost sight of my own instincts!
Before he left I felt mainly numb - this was self preservation. Then I was raging! I still get like that. But now, I'm calming down and feeling things without knowing why and with no one there to tell me! Guess I have to work it out for myself!
Am I the only one this has happened to? Am I making sense??:crazy