Originally Posted by
genrs123 
I feel for you. i was going to apologize for being too harsh in my last post, but it was really just remembering all the hurt, and deceit.
keep reading more posts. have you gone to alanon or narc-anon?
or even coda might help a little bit. (im in alanon and go to coda mtgs).
No need to apologize. Your last post to me was right on. Especially the part when you said you feel like you were using your bf in a way. That's how I've felt since my GF & I got back together. We hadn't made any real changes. We kinda just "started up again" - but this time around, the trust was completely wiped out. So what was I getting out of the relationship, knowing full well she still "wasn't all there" & I was doubting everything she said and did?
No - I haven't made it to an alanon or naranon meeting yet. Ironically, last Friday - I was planning on going - and she showed up & we spent the weekend together. Go figure. Maybe I'll give it a try again tonite...need to do something. Definitely in "sad" mode right now.