This is my first 'thread' response. I feel like you do in the fact that I'm not sure I want to quit forever. How many of you read "Moderation Management"? I can't even make those 30 days. I have come here because I know honestly I am DEPENDENT on alcohol. I think about it constantly. Yet, I am still drinking, and feel like a phony for being here. But I know it's a step in the right direction. Also...I'm keeping this private....I don't want to share this with anyone...and I hope that's not detrimental to my "anticipated" recovery. Thanks for 'listening'