Most of all I was scared of me. I couldn't be ok at all drunk and I could not get sober. I was sad, depressed and so lonley. I wanted to die and then I didn't, but I didn't want to live the way I was living.
I am only sober thirty days, and I know I have a long, long way to go. Meetings every day, being around people, getting and using a sponsor and coming here are what started my journey out of he11.