I've been at this point many times and being the sappy, codependent wuss I am, something sends me running back.
I think knowing how much better life can be without an active addict in the mix has been key in my recovery. I'm not quite there (as much I'd like to be) but I do know I can't live with active addiction. I don't want it and my kids don't deserve it. It's a process for me but knowing that my AH is still drinking makes me just not care about our marriage much. We're separated at this time.
You sound like you're strong and confident and that is definitely something you should take great pride in.
((( hugs )))) :ghug3