Congratulations on day 4!
You are doing great!
I tried many times to get sober. I even tried to recruit my husband as my assitant. Failed every time. I am going to give you the same advice Carol D did. This is the newcomers forum. Go to the alcoholism forum and read the second sticky, it has excerpts from a book called "Under the Influence".
Reading that was like a light bulb in my brain. I finally understood why I could not stop drinking even though I knew it was killing me and ruining my life. There was a constant, internal battle going on between my head and heart. I knew I needed to quit, but always talked myself out of it. Finally, my head and heart are in agreement. I can not control alcohol. Alcohol controls me. I am physically addicted to alcohol. I can never safely drink again. ever. I have since purchased the book "under the influence" and read it cover to cover.
Keep reading and posting. The SR family is awesome! I'm glad you found us.