In I go again ...
I changed my bank account last week and I know that my AW is out of money. Even though we had the same amount, she always go through it faster. I know that she borrowed some money from her mother and then told her father this afternoon she didnt have any money. I thought I would give her some to get her through until I could put some money in the account tomorrow. So I call.
What a moron I am.
She starts in on how happy she is now. How now that she is out from under my controlling thumb how happy she is. She was just telling her principle that every day without me she gets a little happier.
And don't bother with the money, she is coming to my work tomorrow and she wants $1000! I said I was going to give you money but I am not giving you that much. Oh yes you are she says.
I told her that I don't come to the school and interrupt her job and that if she comes to mine I will call the police and they will escort her off the property.
Just when I think I have started to get it together I go and do something stupid.
My favorite part is how she wants to see her son. I said to her that she could have seen him and your daughter yesterday. Her parents were watching them while I was working. They had invited her to dinner. Well she thought one thing that was different than the reality and so flew off the handle and said just never mind then. She was more interested in having things her way that seeing her son.
I have noticed though that while writing this I am calming down more quickly. Why did I call? Why did I think that there was going to be anything else on the other end of the conversation than what there was? I am still waiting for the divorce papers to come through. I think I will call her lawyer and find out what is going on. Maybe I need to file them myself.
I think I am finished. God, I hope I am. I am so sick of the emotional tug of war. Sick of her selfishness and the accusations that I broke this relationship. Does she really see it that way?
I have noticed some things lately that seem really odd too. She is taking Lexapro for depression and still drinking on top of it. I noticed that her handwriting is different. Her signature is different. I have known this woman for 22 years and I have never known her to be so cruel or so un-mother-like. I have read that sometimes A's have mini-strokes. Does anyone have any personal information on this? Could there be something else wrong? These are the things that I have been thinking lately.