no matter what i do they are both mad at me, i cant make etiher one of them happy,
Sweetie, I really don't think it's your job to make them happy. Right now, I believe your focus can be on taking care of you, your physical, emotional and mental health so that you can focus on what is best for you and your wonderful child.
For me, I learned in my program of recovery, that it was ok to let people say and think whatever they wanted - Me & My Higher Power knew We were doing what was best for me and the rest really doesn't matter.
You will be in my thoughts & prayers -
HUGS,
Rita