Eclipse, firstly
Our minds are addictive minds. There will never be any sense to them all the time we drink.
Please dont beat yourself up over this, pick yourself back up and start again my friend.
I have orderd the book also and was advised it would be sent out on 28th Oct, still waiting. Wonder If I will have to wait that long too. I ordered it from Amazon.
I am reading Goodbye Mr Wonderful by Chris McCully, it's really worth a read. It's taken me ages to read it though as I have been too drunk. I too have waited for books to arrive or holidays or social events, the right day etc... they have never come or made a difference.
I have spent the day telling myself there is no point in me stopping now as I have my xmas work party on 11th December WTF! It's over a month away!! Sick Sick mind!