hey Eclipse
Happy Birthday for a start!!
and yeah - it is your alcoholic mind talking - you know what drinking does...it makes no sense to do that to yourself until the book arrives...that's not logical. It's a good book, and I think you'll enjoy it, but it's not magic - in the end you'll just have to 'step away from the bottle' anyway - so may as well do that now
And as for the heartrate thing - if that really was your motivation, one glass would do the trick, right? (it's not effective anyway sorry to tell ya
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Birthdays are special - you should remember this one. Put the bottle down and do something for yourself - something that won't make you sick and that you'll regret tomorrow....and probably start all over again tomorrow cos you feel so bad.
Stop the treadmill now Eclipse
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