Hi Pix and Newleaf,
I just don't know what to say. Today is my 47th birthday. I got into a big fight with my husband last night over something really stupid. I could not sleep at all. I moved to the couch. He talked me into getting back in bed with him and just hugged me. My heart was beating so hard I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I woke up this morning and decided the best thing I could do was have a glass of wine to slow my heart down....duh...I have been drinking ever since. Is this the way to have a birthday? Is this all I have left? I was so happy without it. I don't understand my mind? Where am I going? I am so upset. I just want to roll under the bed and stay there for a week.