A short update:
After her meds ran out she went on a short 4 day course of methadone because of pain, then skipped a few doses to gauge it. Saturday she told me no more methadone, it was getting her high and she liked it too much.
She didn't want to go to detox because it's a hospital and she's sick of them. The only reason I believed her is because she spent the last few days in bed trying to detox on her own, sleeping as much as possible.
She finally got up and asked for a 8mg suboxone then split it in half. I have no idea what she'll do next but I know what neither of us has done and that's relapse. I am proud of us both and grateful to a power higher and better than my own
