you did not CAUSE it, it can not CONTROL it, & you can not CURE it. addict blame everyone & everything on some one. it is up to you to control yourself. you are the only one that can. i am sorry you are hurting. it is really hard to let go of some one you love but you deserve so much better. find a hobby.find something that intrest you & put the focus on you. i am sorry u r going thru this. there is something good out there waiting for you. keep coming back & know we care. hugs & prayers,