A suggestion. Might work for me, maybe for you too
Hello again family!!
Although my last post was filled with hope and inspiration, and believe me I am definetely positive about my sobriety and recovery. However, I do struggle with patience and handing things over to my HP.
It was very easy for me to admit defeat over alcohol and ask for my God's help. It eventually was easy to "hand it over" to him, and trust that he will do what's right for me.
Every morning I ask him for strength, guidance, and wisdom to see his path for me and for me to follow that path.
But I do find that it is difficult to hand over lots of other things in my life, and I suffer a lot of anxiety about things out of my control. The serenity prayer is said often during my day, but I find myself constantly unknowingly taking my own will back. Maybe not my alcoholism, but some other affairs going on with me.
It was suggested to me to create a "God Box". Write what I am struggling with on a piece of paper and put it in the God Box, walk away and try to forget about it. Trusting that he will take care of it for me. The way he intends it to, not how I intend it to. On his time, not mine. Then you can go back maybe once a month or even sooner, take out the papers, and see how things have changed. I struggle with patience the most, because as a good little alcoholic knows, I want what I want and I want it NOW. I seek instant gratification and never receive it. It seems my gifts come to me when I am least expecting them, and usually when I am stressing over something else.
I am going to use a coffee can as my "God Box" and I am starting today with patience being my first slip of paper. Also, my soulmate who I want home now and is digging his heels in. I am obsessing about this and need to rid myself of the anxiety.
Perhaps this will work for you. I thought it was a decent suggestion.
Good Luck
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