Hi Purpleskies, I'm so glad you found us. Your daughter would be so sad to know she was causing you this pain, and would want you to salvage your life. There is no point in two tragedies. I commend you for reaching out and trying to find help for yourself - I'm not sure I would have been that strong. There's only one way to turn this thing around, and that is to become sober so you can learn to live again. Keep talking to us, we care.