I honestly do know how you feel. My mother is an alcoholic also. She done drugs my whole childhood and has replaced it with alcohol. Her drinking also has nothing but a negative impact on me also. My mother goes on the same rants when we bring it up to her and she stays mad for days at us. All you can do is hope or pray that she realizes exactly what she's doing and how it's ruining her life and the lives of her family. This was a good thing to share.