I feel like a heathen saying this, but I am still angry with the lord.
I can't ever remember actually being angry with the Lord. I do remember a time when I felt disconnected from Him. And, then I saw a banner on the altar of the chapel where I was attending a Women's Retreat. It said:
If God seems far away...think...who has moved? I realized I had been distancing myself and needed to reconnect.
Today is a fairly calm day, and I'll take that.
When I read this, I immediately thought of Psalm 46:10
"Be still, and know that I am God..."
Even though I believe I can always feel the presence, it seems stronger when I just let it happen. Perhaps this "calmness" you're feeling...