I feel like I was doing so good last week by not taking his calls and sticking to my guns and having him arrested when he tried to come to the house cause I knew if I saw him face to face I would give in. He was homeless for almost a week and it bothered me not being able to hear from him and know that he was ok. I have mixed emotions right now. I know the risks and I know I am doing a risky thing by taking another chance. Part of me feel almost like a failure for giving in after I felt strong. He doesn't deserve another chance, but I still gave it to him. I hope he can work his steps and pull through. I am going to make sure I put myself first. I have zero tolorance this time.