I caved...
So A-exbf comes over Monday. We went out to lunch and he apoligized for all that he has done, and admitted he was taking advantage of me in certain ways. He has been at a homeless shelter in Boston and also on the street because sometimes the shelter is full. I tried to tell him he wasn't going to stay the night...but I caved. I can't handle the thought of him being homeless. I know it was his actions to put himself in that position. So now he's back and we are trying to work things out. I am getting on the rollercoaster for another ride...hopefully this time it will be smooth sailing but I know to prepare for a relapse at any time. He has court in 3 weeks and might face jail time and/or at least probation for forging my checks. Then maybe that might help him stay clean (I hope).