Hi klutz,
I can really relate to how you feel. That feeling of being drained in your heart and soul. I don't feel like that now, but once did. Please come here and post as much as you need to and read others stories. It is such a healing place to come to and so important to have somewhere to come to with your pain. I am so sorry for the pain you have suffered, but I am glad you have found this place. It helped me so much, I'm sure you will find the same help and healing.