(((cass))) I am sorry for what you are going through. Listen to your gut. Read the stickies at the top of the page. They are very helpful. We like to remind people of the 3 C's. You didn't cause it, you can't cure it & you can't controll it. It is possable to have a life that doesn't revolve around the rollercoaster ride of addiction. We are here for you. Walking beside you.