I don't condone violence either. I am NOT proud of hitting him, not at all. I had a reaction to the UNTRUE insults and I regret it. I will NEVER EVER put myself in that position again. One moment of insanity could ruin my dreams.
I've been posting on a verbal abuse board for 4 years so I'm well versed in it and know quite a bit. I'm also attending a 12-step DV support group at the county domestic violence center. And I hit him....*sigh*
I'm filling out the final portion of the application for Legal Aid to help with my divorce and moving forward. Even if I have to pretend he's dead to not have any contact, I will because I canNOT do this anymore. I deserve to be treated with dignity and respect and it will not come from my AH, especially since he's drinking again. I had a feeling that once he started working and had some money in his pocket he would.
