Hello!
It took some time for me to realize I am an alcoholic. Memory loss from drinking is no laughing matter. I think you need to do more research on the entire issue. If you can experiement with your control, like was mentioned above, then maybe u dont have a problem, u r just getting a bit carried away with it. I cant control it. I have tried and it does not work for me. If I have one I will have 20. If I have none I am good. I too blacked out from drinking....pretty scary to have that happen. But then its stupid that I would go back and repeat it over and over and over. Waking up feeling guilty and ashamed for the night before. Not remember what the hell I did or said. Little flashbacks would pop up here and there but nothing enough to make sense out of the night. Good luck with figuring this out. Lots of great advice to get u started!