Hey everyone...
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ananda, glad to hear you are doing better.
...I'm still edgy. WTF...it's 4AM here...I'm wide awake, yet tired. At least I got 9 hours of interrupted (
many times) sleep.
I'll be truthful...I wake up every day now with the intention of buying liquor or beer...but can't muster enough resolve to follow through with it, yet (eek!). It's taken over my thoughts. I'm still sober, but what's the good in that if I can't stop obsessing? I have no life right now. I wasn't like this a month ago. Why can't I control my brain? I'm tired of this "going with the flow" crap.
Silly me...I was hoping quitting my job would be such a relief that I'd feel a lot better. I do feel better in some ways, but the restlessness/anxiety/aggitation/etc. is still there. I'm not naive...just desperate. I still think leaving my job was a good choice for me...I would have eventually walked out and I don't like doing that.
Hello, DK...how goes it?
Stone, you here?
The two zens?
Anyone else I'm forgetting?
Take it easy, everyone...