Putting one foot in front of the other...
Led my first alanon meeting tonight!
What I realized as I sat listening to others share about the topic I picked, was that I am making progress!!! Now, people have told me I was, and I kind of knew it, but tonight I really could see it.
Not sure how, but the extreme anger I felt for a long time is not there. It feels good to not be mad or resentful so much.
I am getting better at letting go -- which feels great -- you know, not trying to do everything and fix everything -- that controlling I am so adept at.
AND, most importantly, I am beginning to really forgive myself and accept me for who I am.
All this is not to say I don't still have things to work on, but sharing something positive for a change feels good. I also heard so much of "me" when other people shared....further proof we are not alone in this thing.
None of it would have happened without SR (it started here) -- Thank you all so much!