actually i'm not anxious ... i'm sad ... i'm sad because I miss him so much and I wish I'd had a chance to say some things to him that i wanted to say. I'm so hurt ... and some days I wish he would call, other days I think it's best if I never talk to him again. I guess I'm just trying to get a handle on the likelihood of hearing from him again ...
I'm so confused, hurt and messed up right now ... all i can do is read the forums and remind myself i'm not alone and many others have been thru very similar situations ... but I still miss him.
I guess I'm just trying to have realistic expectations of what is likely to come ... the unknown makes me uncomfortable and this whole situation is one big unknown to me ...