Originally Posted by
pattyspaw 
this is so nuts
Exactly.
Originally Posted by
pattyspaw I know the out come when I pick up and still I do it;
You just described my powerlessness in one sentence.
Originally Posted by
pattyspaw what is it going to take for me to get sober?
For me it was the opposite of powerlessness, I needed power I didn't have. Step two helped me with this part.
Originally Posted by
pattyspaw I don't want to feel this way anymore;
You don't have to. You don't have to ever drink again. The big book is a very simple outline that has freed me from feeling that way for 8 months now.
Thanks for coming back and sharing with us. :ghug3