(((Littlebird)))
I'm so sorry. I, too, know the feeling of just wanting to cry and be hugged/held. These days I just snuggle up with my cat, Elvis. It's not the same, but it sure helps.
I read codependent no more a few times...first time I thought it didn't pertain to me. I think I went through 3 copies and several highlighters
Give yourself time to grieve. We have to walk through the feelings to get to the other side. I've tried every way AROUND the feelings, but when I do that, they just come back and seem worse.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy