littlebird
I am so sorry your are going thru this.
I also read codepen no more in the past ~~a few years ago, and when I read it I kept saying this isnt me my parents werent alcoholics and ya know they werent but the disfunction was there
then here on SR others kept saying read the book, so I read it again, and this time I was like OH my this is so ME ~~~~when I stopped looking at all the things in the book that werent "me" I was shocked to see how much of it is ME!!!
Its helped me alot.
Hugs and prayers for you
remember this isnt about you, these are his issues that have nothing to do with you or your worth as a person