Your post has really touched me. Sometimes people talk of a spiritual desert...some times of a dark night of the soul....The first thing most of us do is to deny to run to hide to stop tht uncomfortable feeling. It is frightening. But sometimes it is the depth of that dark uncomfortableness that clears away the clutter in our minds and leads to spritiual or personal growth.
I know that when I am there it can feel like it has been there forever, unnoticed by me....and like it will go on for as long as I live....but in reality it is just the ebb and flow of life as unpleasant as that can be at times.
you are surrounded by people who have all in thier own way been through this expereince and come out the other side to expereince the joy again. Feelings are like clouds drifting through the sky...they pass on and disapear.
I hope you find what you need in order to come through this time and to the other side.
(HUG)