thank you for your kind words. i'm attending some na meetings, but am getting the sense that i need to go more frequently. i also found some marijuana anonymous meetings in my area that i think are a better fit for me. i'm also in therapy.
i just feel really bad about not having loving feelings towards my girlfriend. i'm not sure she can handle this path i've finally chosen. i am completely self focused and not at all aware of her feelings. all i care about is speaking the truth, unfiltered. have any of you taken space in your relationships during this process? i feel like i'm likely to cause permanent damage to our relationship if i continue in this way.