how to start
i'm feeling so low right now; i tried to start this post several times already; i drank again last night, i get to feeling better and then i blow it; i felt so guilty monday night when i got home from a meeting, why do i let others get to me so much; at least last night i got a lot done so tonight is free; this is hard; i've always thought of myself as tough, i'm not and i'm tired of trying to be; i'm letting the tears flow, i'm afraid i won't be able to stop and i have to go to work today; i'm don't like crying, i guess that's a part of the problem; there is so much pain that i don't want to feel;