Hi Katie--
Wow. You're really going through the eye of the needle right now. You sound like a strong person though and once you get all the sh*t cleared up (you can include whatever in that list!) I bet you can get something good happening in your life - phoenix rising out of the ashes!
Probably because you appear so strong - or ARE so strong - you don't often get offered much help or sympathy from folks around you. I see this alot in codies (myself included). I hope you can reach out to a friend for some comfort, or at least continue to try and take care of YOU FIRST!!
Peace,
B.