Rach,
Oh sweetie!!! First of all, let me say how good it is to hear from you. I haven't been around much in the past weeks. So, I've missed you and everyone else here. Second of all, I can tell you that I know just how that dark hole of true depression feels! Do as the good doc. said. Take the meds, but give them time to work. It can take anywhere from 4-6 weeks for them to build up into a steady state in your system. I think therapy is a great idea. I've found it extremely beneficial--not just with the addiction but with my overall depression/anxiety and the way I look at life in general.
It's hard to wait for the meds to work. But I promise you they will. I am currently on Celexa and it works great for me. It isn't for everyone, but there are tons of others out there if this one isn't the right one for your body.
Take care sweetie! And keep us posted! We're all here for you and sending up prayers for you as we speak!!!
Love,
SP
:ghug