NewDay: Welcome. I'm 63 and was also a closet drinker and everyday I would wake up and say "today I will not drink" but at 5:30 on my way home, there I was picking up a little something to keep me company "for tonight". It is a vicious circle and one that only you can break...but the good news is you don't have to do it alone!!! Welcome, and keep talking :chatter