I have severe OCD as well. It started when I was a teenager. I drank to self-medicate and became addicted to alcohol. In my late 20's I started having anxiety attacks. I have all the classic symptoms; washing, checking, repeating, mental obsessions, you name it... I can't take benzodiazepines because I'm prone to abusing them. Pot seems to help a little, but it is expensive and illegal. I have a hard time holding down a job because of my symptoms and a hard time staying sober for anything more than a few weeks. I sometimes experience depression to the degree that I just want to give up on living. That's about where I'm at right now...