Hurting...
I wanted to add to what I posted earlier...
While I felt better having my son here and knowing he was doing better, the truth is, he was doing what "I" wanted, by my rules, to keep the peace and keep a roof over his head. He needed me and that was the deal.
He's contacted me little this week, which is usually a bad sign.
HOWEVER
I've had to reach deep deep down and hold onto the possibility that this is his chance to make his own decisions, and soon, just maybe, those decisions will be good ones.
And he would have done it all on his own, for his own good.
I'm afraid I've robbed him of that for far too long.
I believe he can do it...now I have to act like I do.
Big MOM (((hugs))))