Thanks so much for your reply. I just love this forum and the wonderful people here. Don't worry, I won't take the xanax although numb sounds kinda good right now, I have work to do...
I don't know if I was triggering him or not, but I know he was/is stressing me out to the point where I could feel myself falling back into the depression/desperation/just all around feeling bad place I was when I first found out he was using. It isn't like I can't TELL that he is high...it's obvious to anyone except him. I'm hoping his counselor was right though and this will be the best thing for all of us. It just hurts to see him this way and it's hard for a mom to let go and let God even though I know that's what I have to do. He wants me to make an appointment to talk to his counselor, I might do that.
No, I haven't done any of the meetings or anything, maybe if I do meet with his counselor she can recommend some for me.
Thanks again, it helps to know I'm not alone....