OMG Jules. I just want to assure you that this won't last forever. I can't believe you threw the wine away. Do you see the strength in that? I don't know if I could have gone that far with buying it and then throwing it away.
The emotions aren't going to be out of control forever. You're feeling again. It's a good thing. You can't be strong all the time. I'm glad you are posting about this although I swear I almost had a heart attack. Anyway, that's my problem. That woman at the store was probably touched that you opened up to her and bet you weren't the first to stand in front of her with your eyes full of tears. Sometimes it's easier to break down in front of a stranger.
It's not "always" going to feel this bad being sober. Just give yourself a break please!!!
Anyway, Just wanted to say I love you and I'm sorry you feel lousy. Cry cry cry till it runs dry.......... Let it go as many times as you need to.
xxoKathleen