Welcome to SR!
I am sorry you are going through such a struggle right now. My addiction was to alcohol. I stayed away from drugs for the most part as they would interfere with my drinking..... There are many people here at SR who can identify with you and share their experience, strength, and hope around drugs. A good place to post would be the narcotics threads. I would suggest you find a recovery program whether it be NA or some other recovery program. That is what worked for me.