Originally Posted by
aworriedsister 
I keep going back and forth at being angry at my sister and then sad then angry then sad .
I recently did a lot of soul searching and reading on anger. The bottom line is that anger is rooted in pain. It's self defense because who in their right mind wants to feel pain? But we are feeling pain when we're angry, we're just externalizing instead of internalizing, which can lead to depression. Anger is being stuck between a rock and a hard place.
Sooner or later we have to give into the pain or the anger will eat us alive. Then we have to fight our way out of the pain before it drags us into a bottomless pit. Like walking a tightrope, it's one heck of a balancing act getting to the other side.
The only way I know how to let go of anger is to reach deep down inside myself and find love, healing love. I pray for whomever has caused me that anger (pain). If I'm dropping into depression I reach inside myself and find self love; it holds me steady and leads me to self preservation.
My prayers are with you as you work your way through the pain.