I understand the frustration, fear and sadness.
An addict will quit when the pain of using outweighs the fear of getting clean, and not any sooner.
You are so incredibly blessed to have those precious children with you.
I tried and tried to get custody of my granddaughter, and by the time my grandson came long 5 years later, I had given up.
Short of having wads of cash to toss a very good attorney, which I never had, no one would help me.
I will keep all of you in my prayers. :ghug2