trying to stop myself from having a glass of wine
On day 12 today alcohol free. The headaches have gone, and I feel good. I did a tough gym class at 6am this morning and I am tired now, and I would love a glass of wine tonight as it is Friday night. If I do, my countdown will go back to day one and I will regret it tommorrow for sure, because if I have one glass, I know I will have two.
I hate the fact that I am stressing over this, and that in turn, tells me I have a problem. Why can't I have a glass of wine without the guilt and remorse and the disapointment in myself? I wish I could be like everyone else. Went to the hairdressers today, chatting with her about alcohol. She said she has a glass of wine sev times a week. Thats it, she doesn't crave it or stress if she doesn't have one. Unlike me.
I am going to have a coke zero and an early night. This is what I am aiming for, but it is oh so difficult.