mom of an addict
It has been about one month that my son has been in jail. he got arrested on a drug possesion charge and for the first time, I am not bailing him out. For the first few weeks I was relieved that he was safe and I knew where he was, because before his arrest he was living on the streets for months. He calls me every week and has some legal issues to work out before he can get into a long term facility as an alternative to incarceration. When I talked to him tonight I just got a horrible feeling that he was getting very impatient with the fact that he is still in jail and unable to manipulate his way out of trouble. Why am I feeling this way? Why dont I say to myself " he needs to be where he is and see what it is like to feel the consequences of his actions" Instead I am worried and sad and full of so many emotions I feel like I want to crawl up in a corner somewhere. What is wrong with me and why is this so painful .