(((4gotten)))
I'm sorry for what you are going through.
Unfortunately, this is what comes with life with an addict.
I've heard so many people say "I would do anything if he/she would just get clean", having no idea of what "anything" involves.
No, it's not fair that you're left with a mess he created, raising your child by yourself.
I am not only a recovering addict, but someone who has been in relationships with 3 different A's.
Recovery has to be selfish...if I don't have my recovery, then nothing else matters. The same thing goes for the families/friends of addicts. We have to figure out what led us to accept unacceptable behavior and decide what WE want from life and how to get it.
I do hope you can get some f2f support, whether it be al-anon or counseling. It will help you focus on you and what you want. He didn't become an addict overnight, and he will be in recovery (hopefully) the rest of his life. Is this acceptable to you?
Hugs and prayers!
Amy