Boy, if I had a dollar for everytime I've said that over the past 4 years I'd be rich now!! I'm sorry you had to go through that, but I want to thank you for your honest post. It really helps to see that I'm not the only one.
Amen, Me too. I know I had to play a few good rounds of "it's over, it's over... c'mon over" before I hit my bottom. It wasn't until I got a good group of Al Anon friends with whom I became accountable. I agreed to call one of THEM first instead of calling HIM right away. It worked, over time... and I got better. I had to be really detached from all of it before I could see my situation for the toxic and tragic thing it had become.