Twin, It is great that you recognize your problem. That is the step to recovery. All we ask in recovery is to have a day of reprieve from drinking. The next day will follow. When I first started recovery I had to take it "just don't let me drink now". I took it five minutes at a time. It took awhile to get my 24hrs but I eventually did. The only failure you have in recovery is when you fail to try. Keep trying! I hope you all the best. LOL