Well this is the second time I'm posting this...the first time as soon as I finished my Internet went nutts and closed its self. That's really annoying.
Anyway...
I am still clean! I don't know how, but I am. I feel a lil better today, my body doesn't seem completely detached for once. In the last 5yrs that I've been clean, not one day has gone by that I haven't though of using but I've always been able to keep it in check. I don't know how to do that these days. I know that I can't wait till January so that my life can get back to the way it used to be. I'm still in a lot of pain and have no way of dealing with it. I need to be in the hospital but I refuse to leave my kids with strangers and I have nobody to watch them. I know that I'm walking a fine line right now but atlease I haven't used.
